Absolutely cannot, cannot, cannot STAND that piece of @##$@.

Her perfume is nauseating and i reckon she should get new shoes. UGH. That shitty-fy-ing-ly piece of crap ought to just do her own work and stop asking me to do irrelevant stuff. I can't believe she asked me to check the whole stack of 200 plus delivery orders AGAIN just cos there was nothing else better to do. SO basically i checked it once in the morning, and then again in the afternoon. And she made me do the posting on the com system ONE BY ONE. You know how excrutiating that is? When i could have done it all at a go. But no... she said NO.... GEEZ I'm p.i.s.s.e.d.

I actually took my tuition kid's science assessment book to mark and realised that there were no answers at the back. SHIT. Now i've gotta figure them out one by one.

Anyway, I went to watch 20-30-40 with my mum just now. Haha.. men are just such bastards aren't they? It was revolting to see richie ren in the sex scene. So not him. Then again, the show instilled the-women-can-so-live-without-men notion in me. Haha.. frankly I can't quite imagine myself in a relationship either.

Just not really ready for it. Or am i just consoling myself. hahaha...

I spent an hour cleaning the toilet this afternoon. :) Just shows how filthy I've let it become.

Anyway, I've decided on a digicam. :) :). Anyone who's got any nice models to recommend, please do tell me ya! Oh yes, good news for you sis, you don't have to wait for like one month for your dictionary and jeans anymore. Pa's got someone who's going back to perth so he'll bring the stuff back for you.

As usual, there are about a million things to be done but being the procrastinator I've done minimal. My table's still in a mess, mum had to clear my sty under the table. I bought a really pretty photo album but it's empty cos i haven't had to energy to look for all my baby photos. Photos waiting to be developed, and assessment books to be photocopied. And oh ya I need to send in supporting documents to SMU.

On the brighter side, my granny and kai ma will be here this thurs. Sigh i didn't manage to reschedule my tuition though. And Muhahahaha i actually watched the wedding of evelyn and darren just now. Too diabetic.

Can't seem to collect all my thoughts at once as always. I need a thought collector. Sigh ok that was lame. Sleep.

Tired.

Work at suntec was pretty fun. Just packing stuffs into the suitcase and we didn't exactly have to do the manual work so I'd say it was quite slack and not bad money at all.... Thanks liwei!

But nonetheless, i was tired. And it probably caused me to feel damn exasperated during tuition. I nearly lost my patience, and ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *rips hair* After looking at those chubby little pri sch kids last night and realising how important a pri sch english teacher is, judging frm her english, I'm like 70% convinced that i really want to teach pri sch kids. Her english is worse than my primary four kid's. Sigh and for once i feel really helpless. Need to come up with a strategy and plan.

I've been having really strong rushes of emotions recently. I read something i don't like, or disagree with, and i'd just feel all bitter and disgusted. And it doesn't concern me directly but it pisses me off at how some people can be so superficial and just plain disgusting.

Please, just shut up.

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha.. after having been missing for such a long time, I've finally managed to squeeze some time out to finally get down to blogging an entry. It's not really that i don't exactly have time. i have LOADS of time in the office but just no god-damn internet access.

But, I do enjoy what's going on in my life now, despite missing my kids from school dearly. I went to collect the pics i took with them this evening, and i couldn't help but chuckle along the way as i looked at each picture. Boy did we all look retarded but it was funny. :)

Work's alright.. I've got melissa for company and we're always having extended lunches. Which is bad, cos i was supposed to lose weight but how the hell do i do so when melissa is with me. Yes, it's melissa. I swear we look like the number ten when we walk next to each other cos she's like so DAMN skinny? *pout*

And i get to go down to the store nowadays, which i love cos there's good music and at least people interact there. On the 7th floor everyone's half-dead except the only howling voice--- the damn boss.

Well other than that job, I'm also giving tuition to two kids. :) Something which i wanted to do all along. There's the interview for ushering coming up, and i hope i'll be able to get that job too. Cos it'll let me come home late. HAHA... stupid reason i know, but i'm bloody PISSED at my still over-protective parents. On top of that, I'll get to enjoy the plays as well so I WANT IT and i shall try my very best to get it. :)

Oh yes, finally after a million years, i got the prom pics washed out. Jason please remind me to pass yours to you. It's pretty cheap you know? 44 shots and it costs only about 17 bucks. I shall pass 1/3's photos to angelene and hope they don't draw anything on my face. haha..

I can't get colour onto my hair anymore. :( Liam wanted me at his salon by 2 pm on a weekday. Impossible. sigh! Maybe when i feel rich enough i'll go do it somewhere else. I'm still recovering from the guilt of my major shopping spreee the other day.

Anyway, if anyone want's tog et shoes from charles and keith please tell me ok? Haha if you get 2 pairs there's 10% off that's why..

I don't know why I'm always feeling eternally tired. And I've yet to get my norah jones cd. As well as Cher's super overdue present. At least I've got half of both items i suppose.. haha.. found out ting's got the first album so i'll just have to get the 2nd, and i bought cher a card.

And i havent read a storybook in ages. ACK!!! Now that i type things out i realise I've actually got loads of outstanding issues that i haven't settled.

Digi cam, motobeauty or an unbelievable shopping spree?

*ponders*

:(

:( :( :(

I feel so guilty that i made her cry. But what else was i supposed to do. I tried my very best to cushion the entire thing and i pulled myself out. Sorry.

That's just what I really hate about the working world. Made to choose between friendship and a job. And i chose friendship. Figured I'd just try and find yet another relief teaching job near my area.

I'm just fuming over the irresponsibility of that damn-ed company, for having informed me so bloody god damn late, forcing me to make a decision so fucking quick. And i actually quit my teaching job just for this that's why it's fucking pissing.

Anyway, I'm still going back to school tmr. Decided to be real nice and accompany them on the field trip cos they need someone to keep them in order. I had a nice last day at school today. In fact i was happy till i received that phonecall. The kids were just really adorable all of a sudden. Haha. We took alot of photos, and all of a sudden i felt sad having to leave. I'll probably really miss teck han's crapping.

And somehow my hp no got circulated around. I received a msg from zi feng asking me to guess who zhang fu likes. *rolls eyes* And Eric acts like he's my bf. I don't reply for a few hours and he goes why you reply so late.. i wait very long liao leh.. *rolls eyes vigorously* Anyway he told me his *GASP* secret. haha... I would never have guessed!

Oh well I've gotta pack up my table so that mum can wipe it tmr. haha... if not she'll start arranging my stuff then i'll take time trying to locate them. NUS open house tmr. Sigh I haven't really decided what i want yet. Gonna do some thinking with yans tmr. :)

Perhaps I'll take time off to just really relax and catch up on what i've been missing on. It may be a blessing in disguise that i didn't get the job after all, so as much as i was sore about it, it'll blow over in a day.

I bought two tops and a pair of shoes today! Think i've been spending a tad too much. Bought a pair of pants and a smart casual top the other day too. Boo.

Cheers to a brand new day then! And hope that the kids don't get funny at padang.

Would somebody just slap me awake.

Each day passes by and I'm still in a daze.

Everyone is moving ahead but I'm still stuck in my own time capsule.

Screwed, as usual.

It really was my doom. SIGH.

All that's left to do is try and squeeze myself into the pathetic local uni with my pathetic grades. Somehow there isn't anything better to say. I tried my best and it was the best i could have gotten.

I feel as if my life is aimless now. I haven't got the faintest idea as to where I'm heading to and I've been procrastinating about having to seriously sit down and consider how my life's gonna go from here.

I've been going out, chatting on the phone, watching tv and preparing material for school tmr. Just anything but reading through the relevant materials and finding out about the necessary.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! My life is so screwed.

* holds my breath*

I shall now embark to receive my doom.

My contact lenses keep popping out. P.I.S.S.I.N.G.

Cher actually found lucas on friendster. haha!

Anyway, friday is approaching, and I'll probably come late to take my results. Let all the anxiety die down first before i wallow in self pity. Lemme think... i go to school to teach on that day, then i leave at about 1, considering the packing up and stuff, then i'll probably take a S...L..O....W.... trip back to sa with xin yee. :)

I'd rather go back and teach rather than have to conduct make-up lessons whereby probably only half the students will turn up for. Besides, I'll have to prepare some lousy worksheets for them and hope the worksheets don't get stamped on in their class.

SHE better come back next tues, or i'll go to her house to check if her leg's really such a goner.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!